New Year ♥ Same old, same old

Saturday, June 30, 2007,12:44

I like to pray, so what?

One day my friends and I were talking and we happen to talk about praying. I kinda said to them "Ako nagdadasal ako 3 times a day." They were kinda surprised and I was surprised from their reaction. They said, "O? Hindi nga? Hindi halata *laughs*" I laughed with them too although I was serious when I said I pray 3 times a day; One after I wake up, The other while I take a bath and the last is before I go to sleep. Sometimes I pray more than the usual 3 when emergencies occur. Praying became a habit for me. When I was a little girl my mom used to say to always pray and from then on I have been doing that. I kinda had this belief that when I stop praying God will bring me bad luck. I tried to stop praying for some time and nothing happened to me that's out of the ordinary. I got guilty from not praying, I just wanted to thank God that's all. :D

There are things in my mind. There are some people who don't pray yet nothing happens to them. I'm so confused ><. If I wasn't praying then I wouldn't be able to know my angel's name. :P

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Thursday, June 28, 2007,23:20

Midterm Blues

*loud disturbing sigh*

I just can't believe next week's already our midterms. Time really is fast when you study in Lasalle. At first I thought the seniors were just saying that to scare the pants off us, but now I kinda believe (hehehe... kinda ><).

I promised myself that I'm not gonna fail anymore, especially in Math. I hate to say this but our last quiz in Math turned out to be really expected. You guessed it right, I failed. That's how stupid I am when it comes to numbers especially numbers with letters and points with lines. I really hate it. At first I thought, "Yey Literature, there'll definitely be no math for me I'm gonna be a dean'slister!" But now "Oh man! I wish I could just pass" See the difference? Of course you do. My friend once told me (yesterday) "I'm not smart, you're just stupid" I guess I am in a way. But, I won't let things like this get to me. I'm gonna study extra hard on Math on the midterms. I promise, I really do. Now I just wish I can keep that.

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Sunday, June 24, 2007,17:02

Just bored...

My childhood heroes, it maybe hard to believe, were Sherlock Holmes and Carmen San Diego when I was a 4th grader up to now. I just love those who are able to outsmart their opponents. That's probably where my fascination and obssession to be a detective came from. I love mystery and how it puzzles the mind of people. I would really like to be a detective but I'm not logical enough. That's one of the ironies of life. You just can't have whatever it is that you want the most. It has always been like that and for me it might never change. No matter how hard you try you will never be able to get it and sooner or later you'll end up giving up anyway.

I'm never the motivated-type anyway. One minute I may want to do something but after some time I get bored with it easily and then I leave it alone. I'm what you call a jack-of-all-trades, master of none. I wanted to learn something and then eventually it bores me, then I want to learn something new again and the get bored again... Again and again it never stops. It's already a cycle for me now. Once I learn a new skill I won't be motivated enough to master and I already want to learn a new one... That maybe the reason why I never mastered Japanese, because I wanted to learn it quickly so that I can learn French or German or whatever next.

Playing the violin. I never really liked it but when my mom said that she'd let me study violin I became obssessed with it. How can I say I'm obssessed when I don't like it in the first place? I guess when people suggest things to make me better than others I get all obssessed with it. I like to show off. But now, playing the violin, for some strange reason, became my passion. I love it now that after I get my Ph.D in Philosophy I'm going to study overseas and study the violin. I'm still deciding if it's going to be Germany, Vienna or Italy. I don't care how long it will take me to master "my instrument". Now, I'm wondering if Nicolo Paganini was the same as me. He could be worst, selling his soul to the devil to get the skill he desired the most. I may do that too. Or maybe not. With this I maybe able to fulfill my other dream- to travel the world. I don't want to leave this world without seeing all its splendour.

I'm getting dramatic again.

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Friday, June 22, 2007,20:41

Random Shits and What Not

Time just go by so fast, don't you think? I mean its already Friday, can you believe it? Then the next day we've already graduated, then maybe next week we're already dead. That's how fast I think time is. I mean I'm just thinking the other day about how I can't believe that I'm already in college. Can you believe that? I can't. I really can't.

I'm pretty so-s0 with my present condition right now. Those damn guards stationed at the Andrew Building isn't anymore calling my attention-embarrassing me in front of the whole population in that vicinity (Too many words ><) asking me why I don't have an ID. Do they think I feel happy not having an ID? It adds to my everyday stress, always thinking "will they still let me in?" Now, I just enter through the exit and they don't give a damn, which is really good for me.

Today, we had 2 hours of Chemistry which was only supposed to be an hour but he extended it and we were like so inactive because WE ARE SO HUNGRY!! Luckily, at KASPIL our nice teacher Ms. Wena let us not have our quiz and dismissed us so early so we can eat... I felt so guilty I wanted to cry. It's so me, I like to cry. I just don't like being rude it makes me cry (even though I don't look like it). Just like that one time when my mom deliberately took a seat with someone still eating there. It's so embarrasing that when that person left and we (my brother and I) took our seats I started to cry because it was just so rude and just gave pressure to the one eating. That's not the way it goes. My brother was pretty annoyed with my mom too. She acted so uncivilized... *Sigh* my heart...

Just before I was about to go home. Some guy from Santugon asked me to join them. Being super nice and not being given the amazing ability to say no. I joined their group when I wanted so much to join Tapat, but what the heck, maybe God wanted me to try this one. We'll see. I checked the part where they do nature stuff, but I so much wanted to check the outreach thingy. Oh well, I love nature anyway. Tomorrow's the day when they're going to do lot's of test to my body so that I can be cleared in my medical exam in Lasalle. The things I do to get an ID is truly amazing. I learned my lesson. Never again will I tell medical personnels that I fainted in MoA and Landmark for some unknown reason.

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Thursday, June 21, 2007,22:05

Surprising Day

At last, It began raining a bit or am I just imagining the rain? It did, didn't it? I don't know, It's just so hot to notice things. Anyway its pretty surprising that we had fun and continuously having fun in ENGLCOM. We had to brainstorm about what jobs would be available 90 years from now. The answers ranged from Booger Picker to Butt Wiper, from Space Janitors to Space Monkey Keepers (SPACE MONKEYS!). We had fun brainstorming about those things. It was a serious paired work but we couldn't just take anything seriously.

Hime and I met each other at Mcdo on our break. It took her long enough to arrive there because of some gate-pass crisis (I know the feeling). She introduced me to some of her friends which were pretty cool especially that Sam person. I like her. Oh yeah, before I got to McDo I saw Ms. Chan and she smiled at me which totally made my day. Yeah! I'm just so happy that she recognized me *ish crying tears of joy*. I really like English teachers especially beautiful, smart ones. I'm starting to sound like a weird bi-sexual person which is almost true. ><

Tomorrow will be a long tiring day since we'll hardly get any lunch breaks which is very bad for me since I could collapse anytime. I'm not allowed to go hungry. Damn Chemistry Professor!

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Atashi no kotoba

+ I like water
+ Water tastes good
+ Tasting good means no taste
+ I trust water
+Taste never comes back
+Need I say more?

Kono jou wa...

Joji-chan-sama. Not the name in her birth certificate but the name she prefers to be called..
17 years young and still confused with trivial matters. Sometimes Bi-sexual(Not Lesbian), often times "Normal." Regards the EGA & EGL way of dressing very highly. She cosplays. Likes describing herself in the third person. Has some arsenal of corny jokes or made-up stories ready for emergencies. It takes a Liar to know a Liar.
Declares that she is extremely gifted but much too misunderstood. Very proud about many things that doesn't seem to concern a lot of people. Doesn't like standing out in a crowd but hates blending in. Most of the things she says will, at some point, contradict other things she said before.
Wishes to earn a Master's Degree in History or Creative Writing and Ph.D in Philosophy, then travel around the world(♥) trying to change the unchangeable. Wishes that a rock song of her choice would play at her funeral after she dies of a noble cause and on her epitaph would be engraved "Died trying to make the world her greatness" or something of the sort.

Hon no hoshi wa...

-- Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli (Done reading but still wants to buy)
-- Milkweed by Jerry Spinelli
-- Hard Love by Ellen Wittlinger (Done reading but still wants to buy)
-- Flipped by Wendelin Van Draanen
-- The Broken Bridge by Phillip Pullman
-- The Ruby in the Smoke (The Sally Lockheart Mysteries) by Phillip Pullman
-- Heaven Eyes by David Almond
-- Secret Heart by David Almond
-- Becoming Mary Mehan: Two Novels by Jennifer Armstrong
-- The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants by Ann Brashares
-- Rag and Bone Shop by Robert Cormier
-- The Parallel Universe of Liars by Kathleen Jeffrie Johnson
-- The Light keeper's Daughter by Iain Lawrence
-- Lord of the Nutcracker Men by Iain Lawrence
-- Gathering Blue by Louis Lowry
-- Shades of Simon Gray by Joyce Mcdonald
-- Her Father's Daughter by James Poupeney
-- The Haunting of Alaizable Cray by Chris Wooding (Unfinished Reading)
-- Sophie's World by Jostine Gaarder (Unfinished Reading)

Deguchi you...

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