Dancing boy groups are very popular in Japan especially WfL (W~inds, Flame and Lead), Arashi-which is also gaining popularity here in the Philippines-which I hate =_=. But they're getting old and rusty and I'm almost losing hope looking another group to replace them, then here comes KAT-TUN. Yes, KAT-TUN! I just love them so so much... Waiii~. I happen to see them yesterday at Music Station and they were so COOL! They sang Your Side and Yorokobi no Uta to live audiences complete with interaction among them. Aren't they great?. One thing bothered me about the last video, though, they were shaking their hips as if they were girls. I ignored that fact because I love them so much and I thought I was just imagining things that day. And today, my God today, as I was watching their video-the PV of Real Face-I gasped in horror as I saw them shaking and wiggling their hips as if they were gay dancers *pukes*. My heart was broken and I was just terribly disturbed. WfL do not shake their hips as if they were women. I'm so devastated. My heart can't take this kind of disturbance. Yes, I have a not so serious heart problem just like my mom. Oh well, at least Hime and I regained our love for Gackt once again, even though he looked like a warrior trash-man in Music Station. And he is not gay not like what other people say >:P... That's why I never fall in love with handsome people. There is a possibility that they'll be gay, but I like them anyways... ^^

By the way here's the video of

Your Side + Yorokobi no Uta.

Real Face

I'm not saying I hate them, though. I still think they're cool ^^... But why the hell do they have to shake their hips too much? It's very disturbing I tell you >.<. I'm kinda imagining BoA as a man when I see them dance like that. Why am I always attracted to gays? T_T

My fingers are also so tired from practicing Winter and To Zanarkand in violin. Hime and I plan to have a piano + violin duet on To Zanarkand and Say Goodbye-which I do not have a piece yet. So anyone who has a Say Goodbye violin or piano score, please give them to us. Please :D. I so want to play that and Granpa's violin.

My title has nothing to do with my entry! I saw that WTF sign near Harisson. >.<*rofl*

Bananas: I hate bananas. I always gag when I eat them for some reason. I don't like the feeling it gives on my mouth and it does not taste nice.
Beef: I hate beef but not burgers. Beef tastes like milk which brings me to~
Milk: I hate milk, though I used to love it when I was a child, but now I gag at the taste of it. It tastes weird.
Ampalaya, Okra & Eggplant: They taste weird =_=
Dolls & ventriloquist dummies: Aren't they freaky? Especially dolls that close their eyes. It's very common in horror movies. I probably watched too many Are you Afraid of the Dark and Goosebumps series.
Mediocre Cooking: I hate food with incomplete ingredients, it really annoys me. If your going to cook, complete the ingredients or don't cook at all.
Senseless people: Well, who likes them anyway?
Emotional people: I am emotional but not THAT emotional.
Smokers: They pollute the world! But I don't hate my dad ^^
Dog-eaters: Why the hell do you have to eat dogs? That's cruelty. Its against the animal rights.
Clowns: Why do they have to smile and be so colorful all the time? It's not funny I tell you. It's pretty disturbing. =_=
Wrong Grammar in Translations: I hate it when I'm watching animes or foreign movies, not dubbed but have been translated, and you get wrong grammars. =_=
Animal Cruelty: Mentioned in the former. I hate all forms of it. If I ever see you hitting animals for no reason... You're going down ^^
Racism or Discrimination: Do not be racist like my mom. I don't hate her though, it just annoys me.
Things that are not in order: It's just annoying to look at >.<
Philippine Commercials: First, they make no sense. It's not artistic nor inspirational. It's annoying. Second, when you watch something, 80% are commercials. =_= How fun is that?
Ignorance: For example, like today. I rode a jeep to school, as always, and then this old lady came in and handed her fare to the driver while saying "Senior Citizen". The driver gave back her change which was only 3 pesos. I know I saw that, I kinda like not minding my own business. Then the old lady said "Hindi ba 6 na piso lang kapag senior citizen?" then the driver asked her "Senior citizen ho ba kayo?" WTF!? I smirked in disbelief because of this driver. "Oh come on, it's an old lady with a cane, you asshole." I wanted to say that, really. He embarrassed himself unknowingly to the people around him. Tsk, tsk, tsk, idiots. =_=... I am actually embarrassed for him.



Is that it? Yeah that's about it. I think >.<
DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT give or show or demonstrate to me anything in this list, that is if you want to live longer ^^.

Wahaha... I'm so happy because we only have one class tomorrow... Yey!!! It's just FILKOMU and I can so feel that we're not going to do anything again just like the last couple of meetings since my teacher's so lazy. That's what I like x3. The last meeting, we just have to sign an attendance and then we're free to go. How nice is that? After classes tomorrow, I think it will end at 2:20 or earlier depending on my teacher. Then after that I'm still deciding if I should go visit SPCM. Just to see what's going on and see old friends play and tricks on Sr. Dedi and the likes. Yeah! I should also buy Harry a UAAP ticket for Thursday's game. Speaking of game, Lasalle lost to UE by 15+ points or something. And yeah, I saw an old classmate; Carissa Loresca. She knew I was in Lasalle but I didn't. I feel so mean. It was very nice seeing her ^^. I like her already, again :D.

I managed to fix those previously mentioned flaws. Yey! I'm happy! The whole fixing and editing process took 2 hours =_=. An hour was dedicated to staring and poking pillows while brainstorming and the remaining hour for the editing while singing and banging my head to FOB's music. Thank God I finally figured it out. I love God!. The problem was with the thing, you know, the thing with the B symbol and the search blog stuffs-that was the cause of one problem-It was blocking the first entry's date so I had to increase the pixels from 5 to 20. It was so hard trying to figure out what heading pixel to increase since there's a danger I might mess the whole coding and everything would have to go Bye Bye. Then the links thingy, I fixed that too. I just had to remove the image that it was suppose to have since it's not working anyway. That wasn't so hard since I just had to look for a picture that wasn't working by trying out all the links in the code. After that I'm done. Sometimes I amaze myself. Hahaha

Just when I thought I fixed them all a new problem presented itself in the form of pink smile in the archives thing. Try pressing the months in teh archive thingy and it will direct you to a template that I had plan on using, but I didn't, instead I used this because that one's too pink =_=. I don't know how that happened since I didn't save it as a default template. I tried changing the archiving preferences to daily and weekly and it worked for both but it's too much bulk to see all those dates in the side thingy, so I didn't use it. Maybe the cookies just got mixed up in coding so I'm going to try to clear my cookies later and see what happens. It just goes to show that no matter how hard you try to fix things there'll be more things replacing the things you've already fixed that you won't like and that you'll have to put up with eventually. Like the only saying goes "Only the dead have no problems" or something like that. x)

Yeah! I just changed the my blog's template and I like it, except for some annoying things I can't seem to change. See those links? It annoys me to see them like that. And whenever you make new posts, you wouldn't be able to see that day and date unless you make another one to bring your previous entry down. Blah! Whatever. I can't take it! But I love the template so much I just have to endure those stupid flaws. Being a perfectionist I can't stand things that are not suppose to be that way. Like, I can't stand it when my hankie (or even a piece of paper) isn't evenly folded. I just have to fold it evenly; Or if I write an essay with one wrong grammar in it, I'm already embarrassed about it (I know how Sam feels, believe me. We're very much alike). Things like that and such. It makes me feel good to put things in the right order or something like that. I'm weird I know. But, I'm not a neat freak, I'm actually pretty sloppy. And most of the times I confuse myself, like now =_=. I have to learn how to appreciate the imperfect or else I won't be able to appreciate anything in the world, since, as the old cliche goes "Nothing is perfect". Yeah. So that's it. Love the new look or loathe it. I don't care x). Bother me if it bothers you.

We were kinda talking and joking about our granmas on how "cool" or incredibly boring they are. I kinda told them the story where when I was little my granma, out of boredom, taught me how to gamble... I guess she had no one to gamble with so she had to settle with poor little me. She taught me how to play Black Jack, Poker, 41 and Mah Jong and I managed to beat her several times. I also remember everytime granma watches her soaps and it goes to commercial, oh how she curses those "propagandas" (commercial in old people talk) even though she's praying the rosary... When I told that to my friends they said "Kaya pala eh... Natutunan mo sa lola mo magmura no?" Well, not exactly. The first time I swore is when I was in Prep and all I can say was "shit". Hell, I don't even know what that means then in Grade 5 I learned to say "Putang ina (mo)" from Nico Gresos. Hahaha... Now I'm a "mura machine" as what Erika says. I inherited a lot of traits from my granma... Tsk, tsk, tsk... I still love her though... I like the old people... They're cute... Don't you think so?

Sunday is one of my most favourite day. Why? The sermons. I love the sermons that Pastor Ed Lapiz says. You just have to love listening to his words. Today he gave out a great sermon and this sermon made me appreciate a very simple saying that my asshole friend (not you Carlo Lalata x)) says, "Pasitib Tinking"

See, it's the same life whether you spend it weeping or laughing. So what will you choose? He said that thought is a very powerful medium and whatever thoughts run in your head happens. If you think bad things, bad things happen and so is the opposite. Simple child common sense. There's no use wallowing in sorrow, because what ever it is it wouldn't make any difference. You know you can get a lot of these philosophies in watching Gensoumaden Saiyuki, Saiyuki Reload and Saiyuki Reload: Gunlock. Life is not hard nor hopeless if you only change your outlook in life. In fact life is better and easier today with all the high-tech inventions making us fat, lazy bums. It's the people and their negative thinking that makes it happen. What you percieve in your thought becomes reality. "If you are victorious in the realm of thought, everything is then victorious in reality".

Positive Thinking. Yep, I just love how that sounds. The sky always gives me positive thoughts. I don't know how long or why I've always loved the sky especially the clouds and the stars, I just do (violent rections? agree or die). It's art. It's the kind of art that once you've missed you'll never see again, but there is another picture created everytime. Nothing is repeated but a new picture to be admired is formed. I have no idea why it brings me positive thinking, could it be because it's so peaceful? quiet? clear? I have no damn idea, all I know is it's there and I love it. Period. x)

A lot of kids have been poking me today for some reason, but I don't mind. They are just soooo cute!! ='3

Shiyet ang ganda ng play sobra... Natawa ako sa Happily Ever After, Naiyak sa Hangin at Apoy, Na-elibs sa Hayok at Na-inlab sa Ang Buhay ay Pelikula. Sobrang ganda shiyet... I have to say our (Pare and Me) influences are rubbing on people... Hahaha... Puro mura and gay sex and prostitution... They are so good... Shiyet! I can't stop saying shiyet and I just started one-thrid of my entry in Tagalog... >.<

Yey! OMG! Today I was very happy about how my day turned out. 1st I saw Kenzo, the Japanese DJ, Literature major (same major as me ^_^) guy, early in the morning just as I was about to go to my class. He looks so cool today! (I know he's not handsome, pfft... who cares about the handsome) Kenzo-san hontou ni kakoii!.

Anway, the 2nd thing that happened to me was *drumrolls* the long-awaited "Nihon Kenkyu Kai General Assembly" Yeyyyyy!! It was so fun and I already knew that there were a lot of Anime Fans in Lasalle. Hooray for us! Then there is this Japanese guy I forgot his first name but his last name is Yamada, he's an exchange student for a year along with two other girls but I did't get to see them. Here is where the funny thing starts. After he was introduced I whispered to Reith "Pangs, may bago na naman ako ii-stalkin *laughs*" Then suddenly the president of Nihon-Ate Kate-said, "Wag nyo naman pong haharasin ang ating mga exchange students. Bawal po silang i-stalkin baka matakot at mag-sumbong" Then the people surrounding me loudly said "O Joji, rinig mo yun? pinaparinggan ka" I was so shocked because I just whispered and it was so noisy in the room. WTF? It's the same with the football thing. Again, do I look like a stalker? Too bad I didn't see Chantal or Kuya Rap. But it was really fun, Reith was devastated because she lost to another girl in the who-knows-more-BL-manga (no doujinshis)? How can she forget about Tokyo Babylon, Yami no Matsuei, Loveless, Gravitation and X. We made a friend her name is Aiko, she was so cute :D. There was also this guy that looked like YUI's boyfriend in Taiyo no Uta. I stared at him for a long time, because I was trying to make sure... Haha... He does.

Lastly, in Sociology we talked about how boys and girls' preferrences vary for each other. The other girls wanted Tall, Tan and Long-haired (?). But me? I wanted Tall, small eyed and spiky-haired. I remembered that one time when Hime reminded what kind of boys I like she said "Oi diba gusto mo mayayabang?" She was right. I don't know why but I'm kinda drawn to them, but I don't like all boys who are "mayayabang". I remember when I used to tell my mom that "Pag ako nagka boypren, yun yung taong nakatalo akin sa lahat ng bagay, sa mga nilalaro ko, mas matalino sakin and yung magaling mag-luto." Yep, until now I have found no one that has accomplished this. But I guess you just can't have what you want in this world, where's the fun in that and that's just how it is.

Hahahaha.... Yamada-san suki you!

My grandpa died last April 11, we were on a vacation in Isla Verde (It's an island that belongs to my grandma and her family. You can see it on he map. It's pretty small, though) and then one morning I found out that my parent's are gone. They all told me that my mom had to go on an emergency meeting back in Manila-so yeah I just ignored that they were gone and continued with having fun and doing my business, like always. Don't get me wrong, I didn't exactly know what was happening.

We left Isla Verde and we (me, my bro, ate [our helper], and my granpa and granma) went back to Batangas to rest and wait for my parents to pick us up. The next day, we were still in Batangas my granma suddenly wanted to talk to me. We sat in the sofa and my granny said "Kate, paano ko baga are sasabihin?" There was a pause as she looked at my ate then granma looked at me again. In my mind I was "Oh-kay?". I think granma took a deep breath before she told me "Kate, ang iyong mamay Pilino... namatay na" With that said-this is the first time I've felt it-I felt like time stopped for a moment. I was pretty silent for a moment letting the words register on my mind. My chin began quivering as I asked "Huh? Ano po? Pano?" Those were the only words I was able to utter. And as I was told I found out that I'm the only one who doesn't know what was going on? Even my brother knew it before anyone else-he slept in the same room with our parents so he heard the conversation.

The day after that incident my dad was finally coming to pick us up, not to bring us back to Manila but to let us attend my granpa's funeral. There were so much hassle because we had to pick out clothes for my mom and ourselves and something happened that I don't want to share because it was quiet embarrasing. Anyway, We were traveling to my other granma's place-It was beautiful before the storm struck it. We were trying so hard to have a jolly aura while my dad was driving-he was joking about a lot of things. I can say though that at that time we were hiding our true emotions. When we finally arrived everyone looked at us and then turned away (that was good since I don't like to be stared at). As I got inside I saw my mom she looked really worn out and then my granma-she told me "Ineng, tingnan mo ang mamay" all I can was nod then and I didn't look because I don't want to cry or I'll cause another series outburst. I thought I can accept my granpa's death since I thought he died of natural causes, but I discovered things that night that corrected my belief.

That night, it was I think 6pm and I was starting to feel sleepy since I woke up at 5 am (my dad said to wake up early because he's gonna pick us up but he didn't pick us up early instead he arrived 6 hours later: Filipino time. My dad's such an ass), anyway, since there's no place sleep I tried to stay awake but I eventually fell asleep while sitting down. My brother, who was among the people listening to my dad's and the other important people's conversation, came to me and said "'Te Kate, pinatay daw si mamay" With that said I wasn't so sleepy anymore. "Ha? Pano?"I said. Then my brother told me the whole story.

That night when my granpa arrived from his usual walk to the mountains (our goats, cows and a large part of our land was there and my granpa had to go up everyday to take care of them), he rested first beside the pigpen so that he could also watch over the pigs (I like those pigs. They're cute, especially the crippled one) but my granpa didn't know that he was followed. After that a lot of assumptions were made on how my granpa was brutally killed. And he definitely didn't die of Diabetes or heart attack. My granpa was found dead naked and lying face down with a big scar on his he was covered in mud and dung. Do they really think we're THAT stupid to think it's heart attack? Maderpaker! If you're gonna do a crime know the facts and do it right.

On the day of the burial, everyone started to cry again, especially me. I easily cry over things especially things like this. As we got to the cemetery my granma was getting hysterical, she began shouting "Hindi kita natulungan" over and over again. My granma was in Mindoro when my granpa died and only my uncle was there. I learned later on after the burial my granpa was killed because of greed and land conflicts, just because our land's bigger. My granpa was a nice man he wouldn't hurt anyone and he's not even sociable. From that day on I promised to myself that I am going to write a novel about my granpa. That's why I cancelled my shifting form and decided to not shift from literature to communication arts. I don't know, could it be that it is another of God's will for me? When he wills it then it shall be, right?

My first super long post... DEKUSHITTA KAMPEKI SURU!!!

Well today, I met up with my old elementary classmate; Jay! aka Jaime, he likes to be called Jay the ass. Anyway, I went to Mcdo as soon as we were dismissed and as I got there I looked for a vacant table- the table near the washroom-it's almost always vacant. I texted him and told him to look for me. This is where the funny thing starts. After I texted him I looked around for him and then there was this guy coming close to where I was, he stood behind me but I ignored him so he went to the bathroom, I was kinda getting the feeling that it was him. Then Jay texted again and then I told him to look for me in the line at the counter because I was about to order and just before I stood-I was right, that guy was him. So we began talking and I was waiting for Hime. God, he didn't get any taller >_<. Hime finally came and unfortunately I had to leave because I'll be late for my mid-term exams. I hurriedly ran to Andrew Building and I know that I had no time to use the elevator so I ran to the 10th floor... Was it tiring, you ask? Hmmmm.... Well, DUH! Good thing I found Kim in, I think, the 7th or 8th floor and we both made our way to the 10th and went straight in our room. When I finally arrived I was surprised that they were not taking the test... What the FUCK!? Of course I didn't say that out loud it was what I was thinking. I seated myself in the usual place and asked "What the hell are we doing?" Then they told me that the test's going to be on Monday. Another WTF moment for me that's two times in a row in one class. Now I was thinking, "I ran form McDo to here, and I had to run from the 1st floor to the 10th? Who is toying with my emotion, who!?" We were reporting then and since I am already there I had no choice but to report with them. I knew somewhere inside me was a feeling that I shold've cut that subject, now I know why. Man, I am so good my instincts are always right x). We had to report about Kris Aquino and how is she an Icon to the Filipino Pop Culture. She's endorsement whore-that's what we said. Well, anyway there were no tests today but next week there's going to be a lot. We already had our test in math but my results are always so predictable. I'll FAIL. Busy, busy, busy week.

Yey! OMG! I finally have an ID n_n, that means results from my neurologist are in. Yes they are and the findings are normal- I'm normal- Perfectly normal! Woohoo! I'm still on medication, though; The appetite increasing medication. The neurologist said I'm soo underweight, that's why I didn't make it on tennis try-outs. No matter how much I eat I don't increase my weight. I'm happy with that-that I'll increase my weight with medications, the only effin' problem is my mom won't increase my allowance. Now, how the hell am I suppose with limited allowance? Damn it! Now you think that was all, but there's more. In the neuro's recommendation it says, since I've had two episodes of fainting in the mall (MoA and Landmark), I'm not allowed in places where it's too crowded and I should avoid direct heat from the sun. Now, I didn't say anything but it was surprising when she looked me in the eye and said "No Soccer!" I was kinda shocked because I wasn't saying or asking anything about football. In my mind I was all "WTF!? But I have try-outs" but I just nodded, said my thanks and went out. Do I directly look like a football player?

Football. I learned to call soccer football from my 26 year old Australian pheadophile friend >.<

Like I'm gonna do what they tell me. xD

There are some funny that have been going about in my head about my future. I just remembered yesterday since Hime asked me what are the IBG rules and contracts (IBG; Isip Bata Gang) I kinda named a few especially for contracts. We liked making contracts for some reason and what's funny is those contracts are for the future. Our living together contract was made so that in our college days we will together in a boarding house, obviuosly not fullfilled since I'm sooo near my school, but we changed it to after graduation and when we have a job ^_^. Another is marrying the children with one another contract (Note to self think of a better name) it's the contract where we decided to engage our children to another child whose parent signed the contract (idea? Ranma 1/2). Then we ripped the paper and handed one another each of the ripped paper :P. Whoever loses the paper has to pay P 10,000 to everyone included in the contract. I take contracts seriously that's why I never lost my piece :D.

I so wanted to save, why? So that when I grow up my children can study Xi Gong in China while learning the violin in Germany or somewhere... Weird? Yes, that's me. Impossible? I don't think so. Hopefully when that time finally comes I'm already a Tennis-acing, violin-playing, globe-trotting Journalist/Archeologist/Writer :P... It's really nice to dream isn't it? XDD