Wow, how fast the time goes by one minute I remember myself stealing money form my mom's wallet (Because I was young and didn't know way better[Past is past])and then BAM! I snap back to the present only to remember that on Saturday, I will enter adulthood. LOL. Seriously, I remember when I was a kid I used to imagine myself--my future self-- what kind of college will I go to, what kind of friends will I have, will I ever become famous. You know, the cheesy kinds of shit children think of, and that includes dreaming of marrying a boy band member (Ben Adams anyone?). Maybe when I grow old I'll look back to myself looking at my future. Now that I think about it I would like to skip from being an adult to being an old crone. Just like what Kado said "I wouldn't have to go through mid-life crisis." Good one. Plus, I can't wait doing what other oldies do: Walk extremely slow, have discounts, always be in a wheel chair (Wheel chair race~!), be part of a senior citizen community that plays bingo and do ballroom dancing, have a minimum of 3 diseases or ailments your complaining about, and most of all (mentioned earlier) have fun looking back at the childhood you once had and cursing yourself for missing certain opportunities.

For my 18th birthday, I didn't ask my parents for a debut. I just asked for some moneh~! Yeah~! First of all, I do not see the significance of it (sorry if I will offend some people who wishes to have one). You rent a place, you stress about it for months, feed people who attend, dance with boys, wear gowns and act all pleasant in front of people. Although I don't mind he gown wearing part and the gift receiving part. LOL. Second, I don't have that many people to attend my debut. Not because I'm friendless (FCUK YOU, If that's what you thought), but because I'm pretty much anti-social which is not at all synonymous with being friendless. Third, I can't think of anything anymore. LOL. I don't mind attending them though. Who the hell can resist FREE FOOD? I remember my dad joking to me about only giving me 1/5 of my debut money. FCUK THAT NOTION~! I told them that if that's all they're gonna give to me then I might as well have a debut that's 5x more expensive than the money they're going to give me, LOL. They finally agreed but I tried to ask for more, but they didn't consider it. Hey, at least I tried. I'm a very spoiled child.

Even after all this getting ready to receive my debut money (it's equivalent to a debut for me) and thinking of all the ways to spend it which BTW I already made a list of things to buy which mainly consists of cosplay items, I still can't feel that I'm an adult. How does one become an adult? LOL, it's the same when I stepped into high school and college. I thought the exact same thing. I didn't feel like a high school student only after I experienced my first JS Prom. I didn't feel like a college student either until I experienced my first failure which was very hurtful but I'm a bit happy about it now which is a very long irrelevant story to this one. And now, I don't know when I can feel like an adult. I don't know, maybe when they start respecting me and stop dictating me of the little things I want to do with my life. What's so great about being an adult anyway? Nobody gives you Christmas money, you'll be obligated and expected to act proper, to follow rules. I mean everything you do in school is so that you could get ready for your adult life. Now that I think about it, which will be contradicting the other things I just said now, adult life isn't boring at all it's the people that makes it boring because they set restrictions for everyone. LOL, took me long enough to realize it.

OK, I'm done and I just realized that this was my first post with my new blog name and after such a very long time too.

Why is it that my title is in Arabic? Weird but cool. LOL. For those who can't understand the title is supposed to say "I Can't Think Of Anything." If it means something bad I'll immediately change it because I don't know how to read Arabic.

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+ I like water
+ Water tastes good
+ Tasting good means no taste
+ I trust water
+Taste never comes back
+Need I say more?


Joji-chan-sama. Not the name in her birth certificate but the name she prefers to be called..
17 years young and still confused with trivial matters. Sometimes Bi-sexual(Not Lesbian), often times "Normal." Regards the EGA & EGL way of dressing very highly. She cosplays. Likes describing herself in the third person. Has some arsenal of corny jokes or made-up stories ready for emergencies. It takes a Liar to know a Liar.
Declares that she is extremely gifted but much too misunderstood. Very proud about many things that doesn't seem to concern a lot of people. Doesn't like standing out in a crowd but hates blending in. Most of the things she says will, at some point, contradict other things she said before.
Wishes to earn a Master's Degree in History or Creative Writing and Ph.D in Philosophy, then travel around the world(♥) trying to change the unchangeable. Wishes that a rock song of her choice would play at her funeral after she dies of a noble cause and on her epitaph would be engraved "Died trying to make the world her greatness" or something of the sort.



-- Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli (Done reading but still wants to buy)
-- Milkweed by Jerry Spinelli
-- Hard Love by Ellen Wittlinger (Done reading but still wants to buy)
-- Flipped by Wendelin Van Draanen
-- The Broken Bridge by Phillip Pullman
-- The Ruby in the Smoke (The Sally Lockheart Mysteries) by Phillip Pullman
-- Heaven Eyes by David Almond
-- Secret Heart by David Almond
-- Becoming Mary Mehan: Two Novels by Jennifer Armstrong
-- The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants by Ann Brashares
-- Rag and Bone Shop by Robert Cormier
-- The Parallel Universe of Liars by Kathleen Jeffrie Johnson
-- The Light keeper's Daughter by Iain Lawrence
-- Lord of the Nutcracker Men by Iain Lawrence
-- Gathering Blue by Louis Lowry
-- Shades of Simon Gray by Joyce Mcdonald
-- Her Father's Daughter by James Poupeney
-- The Haunting of Alaizable Cray by Chris Wooding (Unfinished Reading)
-- Sophie's World by Jostine Gaarder (Unfinished Reading)



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